Just Leave Me Be

I have had enough of you. It seems as if all you want to do is hurt me. What the heck did I do to you? Your the one who broke me. Are you not satisfied with that?

Now that I'm finally happy again you instantly appear. And all you have been doing is bringing me down. I thought I was through with you. I thought that finally you can't hurt me any more. But here I am, once again hurt by you. Yeah, I say that I don't care anymore but still it hurts sometimes. It makes me wonder what the heck I was thinking when I was with you. I didn't know how much damage you could do to me. Honestly I know that I do care, otherwise I wouldn't be writing this stupid thing. But here I am writing this..caring.

I wish I could be mean to you back, to hurt you. But I don't have it in me. I'm not that kind of person. People ask me why and I just can't explain it. But I know doing that won't make me no better than you. In fact I would be just like you. Hurting someone I once claimed to love. I want to know how you can go to "I love you" to "I hate you" when I haven't done a single thing to you.

I know that I just need to forget about you but it is so hard. I may not feel the same way about you as before but I still care. I would be hurt if anything ever happened to you. And it is so stupid because I know that you probably wouldn't even be bothered if anything happened to me. But hey what can I do right. I guess it is what it is. I tried with you and it didn't work, so now I just have to move on, and not worry or care about you any more. My song for it being over:
"I am running out of words to say to you. Wondering why I'm wasting my time. Thinking back and wondering why I'm such a fool for loving you"