Well, I'm the one who's an idiot. Why am I not satisfied with what I have or had? It seems as if everything I do is a mistake. I'm supposed to make the right decisions for myself right? Well it sure as hell doesn't seem like I have been doing that lately. I'm just so tired of pretty much everyone. I want to know why everything has to be so messed up.
It all started with Freshman year. Damn high school. I put my self through so much pain, and for what? Nothing. Do people really think that I don't know what they are saying about me? That just because they don't tell me to my face the word still doesn't gets around. I'm basically just talking about one person here but still. But hey whatever right? It doesn't even matter anymore.
Things sure have been blowing up in my face lately. I ended it because I wasn't happy, that night I was even more unhappy then before. It killed me to know how much I hurt someone else. But I guess I didn't even hurt you because now you're moved on and happy. Again, I went through that pain for nothing.
Finally, theres nothing no one can say to make me think that I'm not the stupidest person ever. Just when I thought I was going to be happy again, it ends. I should have known that something like this would happen. It did once before so why wouldn't it happen again? I just need to get a grip on myself.
For now on, I dont' care. About anything, my only goal is that I do not get hurt.
"Thats What You Get When Your Heart Wins"
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